Thorn Fae Chapter 15: Safe Now

Hawk. Hawk Hook. My best friend throughout the majority of my life. My best friend, the guy who’s heart I broke. The guy who must think I killed his mother.

As soon as I realized who he was, I quickly searched around me for somewhere to run. I needed to get away from him before he started yelling at me and accusing me. But I wasn’t fast enough.

“Thorn? Is that really you?”

“Y-yes, I’m so sorry, I’ll lea-” I started to say, but was abruptly cut off.

“I’m so happy, you’re alive! All this time, I thought you were dead. You have no idea how happy I am to see you.” He ranted as he threw himself on me for a bear hug. It felt like he was holding onto me for dear life.

“You’re… happy?” I was confused. I assumed he hated me.

“Of course, Thorn! You’re my best friend.” He smiled at me.

“Really? After all this time?” I smiled, maybe I wasn’t so alone after all. “After everything…” I let my voice trail off. I didn’t want to mention it.

“Absolutely. You mean the world to me, Thorn. I was so worried. I thought you were dead, or hurt somewhere. It killed me that I couldn’t trace you down.” He pulled me into another hug. “I just can’t believe you’re really here.”

“Me either.”

“When did you get here?” He asked.

“Not long ago. Like, today.” I chuckled.

“Do you have a place to stay?” He pulled away from the hug sheepishly.

“N-no, but it’s okay. I’ll figure something out.”

“Nonsense. You grab…” He looked over at the baby on the bench.

“His name is Aspen.”

“You grab Aspen and I’ll drive you both back to my place.” He offered.

“No, it’s okay. I can’t put you out like that.” I felt bad, just randomly stumbling into his life. I had so much emotional baggage, and a baby. I didn’t want to burden him with it.

“Nonsense. You’re family. Both of you. C’mon, let’s get you back to my house. You can clean up, and we can catch up.” He glanced briefly at my still bloody hands. It was so gross, but I couldn’t get myself to wash them yet. It was all I had left of Pepper.

“Okay. But I promise I won’t stay long. I don’t want to be a burden.”

“You’re never a burden. Besides, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if you and your son were out on the streets.” He smiled sadly.

“Okay.” I smiled. It would be nice to be in an actual house, with electricity and working plumbing.


I put Aspen down for a much-needed nap on Hawk’s bed, then came out and sat down on the couch with him. It was slightly awkward, it had been so long since we’d seen each other, and so much had happened. I knew he had questions. I did as well.

“When did you move to Bridgeport?” I asked to break the awkward silence. I couldn’t stand it anymore.

“About a year ago. I came here to go to school. And to get a fresh start. I needed one.” He wrung out his hands nervously.

“I’m so sorry.” I hung my head.

“I know it wasn’t your fault. Aloe was a creep. I’m assuming he tried to hurt you, and my mother sacrificed herself to help you. Is that what happened?”

“Yea… Exactly, actually. How did you know that?”

“I know you. I know you wouldn’t shoot my mother. And I know Aloe. He’s definitely capable of something like that. And I knew my mother. She loved you as much as she loved me, she protected you like you were her own son. I knew she would die for you, and that’s exactly what she did. I’m glad she did.”

“You’re glad?” I was slightly taken aback.

“Of course. I’m glad her death was meaningful. And, I’m glad her death wasn’t for nothing.” He placed a hand on my knee. “I’m so glad you’re alright.”

“I wouldn’t say I’m alright.” I laughed, I must’ve sounded like a crazy person to him.

“I can’t imagine what you’ve gone through. It must’ve been hell. But, you’re safe now. I’m not gonna let anything bad happen to you here.” He let go of my knee and he smiled at me. “I really missed you, Thorn.”

“I really missed you too.” I felt like I was about to cry, but I stopped myself. I’d had enough of that.

“You don’t have to tell me what happened to you. You don’t have to say anything you don’t want to. But I want you to know I’m here for you. I really care about you.” He averted my eyes and looked down at his hands. It sort of looked like he was blushing.

“Thank you.” I stood up, prompting him to as well. “That means more than you’ll ever know.”

“Of course.” He wrapped his arms around my neck. We stood there for a few moments, just embracing each other. It was such a nice feeling. I missed him so much.

“Are you tired? I bet you’re tired.” He said, with his face still squished into my body.

“I’m exhausted.” I laughed. “It’s taken me days to get here, and I’ve had to watch Aspen the whole time.”

“You can go crash on my bed if you’d like.” He offered kindly.

“Are you sure? I’m pretty disgusting.” I admitted. Suddenly I was very self-conscious about how I smelled. I probably smelled awful. My face burned with embarrassment, I didn’t want to look like such a mess in front of him.

“That’s okay, I’ve slept in that bed smelling much, much worse than you.” He laughed.

“Now, go get some rest.” He pulled away from our hug and smiled at me.

And rest is exactly what I got.


When I woke up, it took me a few moments to get my bearings. I was disoriented, I slept so much I forgot where I was and how I got there. But soon I remembered everything. I remembered that there was supposed to be a baby in the bed next to me, but he wasn’t there.

Panicked, I checked under the bed and around the room. He was nowhere to be found.

“Hawk have you…” I burst out of the bedroom to find Hawk holding Aspen in his arms. Hawk had this wide, dopey smile on his face. It was kind of adorable.

“Hey, sorry to scare you.” He looked up at me. “Aspen was crying, you were in such a deep sleep you didn’t hear him. I hope you don’t mind, I’ve been caring for him today.”

“I don’t mind at all. How long have I been out for?” I smiled and walked towards the couch to sit next to him.

“About twenty-four hours now.” He chuckled.

“Oh wow. Sorry, I don’t mean to just dump him on you.” I sighed.

“Don’t even worry about it. I love babies, and he’s a great baby.”

“Yea. He is.” I smiled sadly at Aspen. I wished that Pepper was here to see how adorable his son was.

“How are you doing? This couldn’t have been easy for you.”

“What do you mean?” I asked, confused.

“Y’know, having a kid. I can’t imagine pregnancy was easy for you.” He told me. I realized that Hawk thought Aspen was my biological son. This was going to be tricky to explain.

“Oh. Um, well. wasn’t pregnant.” I bit my lip. I was worried what he would think.

“Then who’s baby is this?” He asked me gently, though his eyes looked absolutely terrified.

“My boyfriend’s.”

“Oh.” He responded. It sounded as if he were sad. I couldn’t imagine why. “Where is your boyfriend now?”

“H-he’s dead.” I squeezed my eyes shut to keep myself from crying. “He died in childbirth.”

“I’m so sorry Thorn.” That must’ve been awful.” I gave me a sympathetic pat on the knee.

“Thanks.” I responded awkwardly. I wasn’t exactly sure how to respond to that.

“Well he’s still your son. And he’s beautiful.” Hawk smiled at Aspen. “He’s very lucky, he’s got an amazing guy for a dad.” He looked at me.

“I wouldn’t say that, really.”

“I would. You’re a great guy and you’re gonna make an amazing dad.”

“Thank you.” I smiled sheepishly. His comments were making me blush lightly.

“Of course, Thorn. I mean it.”

I really hoped I wouldn’t screw up.

Thorn Fae Chapter 14: How Did I Get Here

I don’t know how long I stayed there for. I don’t know what I was doing, or waiting for, but I just needed to sit by him and cry. I thought about everything that died with him. Our son having a father, me having a husband, us giving Aspen the best childhood we possibly could. I lost growing old with the one that I love. I lost everything.

Someone had to pay for this. Pepper didn’t deserve to die like this. He was a great person, he deserved to live a long, happy life with me and our son. Someone had to pay for this, and I knew exactly who. This was all his fault.


I don’t remember exactly how I got there. The last thing I remembered was putting on a pair of pants, then the rest is blank due to rage. I’m not sure how I knew exactly where he lived, but as soon as I reached the house I knew I was exactly where I needed to be. There was garbage and scrap metal all over the dead lawn. The place was a dump, its exactly the kind of place you’d expect the scum of the earth to live.

“Hey Hemp, you motherfucker!” I burst through the front door faster than my mind could process what was happening. I instantly regretted it. This man was dangerous, he had raped the love of my life and murdered one of my closest friends. It was too late now though, so I was probably going to die here.

Jean and her little girlfriend were laying on one couch, watching TV. Hemp was passed out on the other couch, it looked like he’d been shooting up.

“What the fuck, Thorn.” Jean sat up and faced me.

“Shut the fuck up, Jean, this doesn’t involve you.” I snapped at my former friend. I still hated her for how she betrayed all of us.

“Don’t you fuckin talk to my wife that way.” That stupid woman next to Jean squealed. She had one of those annoyingly high, squeaky voices that just pierce your brain. It made me even angrier.

“Both of you, just shut the fuck up.” I yelled. Hemp started to stir.

“The fuck is going on?” He mumbled as he sat up.

“I’m here to fuck you up, that’s whats happening.” I came towards him. He immediately stood up.

“What the hell, Clementine? What are you doing here?” He sounded more confused than angry.

“I’m here to make you pay, you fucking asshole! You raped Pepper, you got him pregnant. He just fucking died while giving birth! This is all your fucking fault!” I screamed at him. Tears were streaming down my face. I shoved him hard in the chest. He stumbled backward a little bit, I caught him off guard.

“Fuck you, you liar.” He swung at me, but luckily my arms took the majority of the blow. “I never touched your little friend. There’s no way there’s a baby.”

“Oh yea? Then what do you think this is?” I shouted as I shoved my bloody hands in his face. “This is his blood. It got here when I was helping him deliver, you fucking idiot.”

“How do I know you’re not lying to me? How do I know you didn’t just murder her and now you’re trying to shove the blame on me?” He yelled back.

I punched him. As hard as I could. He struck a nerve with that. Misgendering Pepper, and accusing me of killing him, made me want to kill Hemp. I wanted to bash his face in.

He wasn’t expecting me to be so strong. He wasn’t expecting my punch to knock him off his feet.

I guess anger and grief really can give some people superpowers.

Before he could even realize he’d fallen over, I was on top of him. I grabbed him by the shirt and pulled his face close to mine.

“You’re a piece of shit. You are scum, garbage. You are nothing, and I hope you fucking die.” I spat in his face, before punching him again.

And again.

And again.

I was completely blinded with rage. I was taking all of my anger out on his face. Rightfully so though, he was the reason I was completely alone in this world. He’d taken everything from me, and I wanted to take everything from him. Even if that meant taking his life.

“Thorn, stop! Don’t kill him!” Jean’s voice snapped me out of it. I looked down at his face, which now just looked like a bloody mess.

The reality of what I’d done sunk in. My chest felt heavy and tight, and I felt like I was going to puke. I had beaten a man within inches of his life. He was breathing, though it was heavy and I could hear him gurgling on his blood. If they didn’t get him to a hospital soon, he’d probably die.

He deserved to die, but I wasn’t going to stick around and watch.

“Fuck you.” I spat on his body. “Rot in hell, you piece of shit.” I turned to Jean and her wife. “And fuck you too. This all happened because of you. We were there for you when you had no one, and now Rose and Pepper are dead. This is on you.”

Jean’s face dropped, her eyes started to water. “Fuck you.” She said softly.

“Fuck you too.” I told her.

I spun on my heel, and flew out of there as fast as my wings could carry me. I didn’t want to see any of their faces ever again.

And I never did.


The walk back to the house was long and terrifying. I took backstreets to avoid being seen, just in case they had called the police on me. I doubted it, considering all the drugs they had in that house. But still, I was extra cautious.

I had to drag my feet up the stairs. I didn’t want to go back up there, but I didn’t have a choice. Aspen was up there, I couldn’t leave him. I’d already left him alone for too long. Maybe I wasn’t cracked up to be a father.

I came up the stairs and collapsed into the armchair. I started to sob. How did my life get like this? How did I get here? I’d lost everyone I’d ever loved, I owned nothing, and I was homeless. All I had was me, and now this baby.

For a moment, I figured it would be easier to drop him at the hospital. Let him get adopted and have a good life. And me, well I’d just go jump off a cliff. I’d be better off anyway.

My suicidal thoughts were pushed aside when Aspen started to cry. That cry awoke something inside of me, it gave me hope. Maybe things weren’t so bad after all. I mean, this baby was half Pepper. I still had a little piece of him to hold close to me.

I gently picked him up off the bed. My fingers were still bloody, with both Pepper’s and now Hemp’s blood. I tried my best not to get my fingers on Aspen’s body. I didn’t want to get him sick or anything. My knowledge of babies was minimal, so this was going to be an adventure.

“Shh, it’s okay.” I pulled him close to my chest. He immediately stopped crying. My heart soared. I felt like he loved me. I loved him, and I wanted to give him the best life possible.

Which is why we had to get the hell out of there.


It took a few days to get to where I wanted to go. I’d been saving up some money to get something nice for Pepper and the baby when he was born, but I didn’t need that anymore. I used that money to get a subway pass. It was very useful, I had to take a million different trains to get from the valley to Bridgeport.

I picked Bridgeport because this town is where my grandmother ended up after leaving Sunset Valley. It was also the town she met my grandfather in, and maybe, just maybe, this is where my grandfather and my father were living now. Bridgeport is also a town known for its entertainment business, and I assumed I might be able to find a job and a place to stay here. It was worth a shot.

I was exhausted. I’d barely slept in days. I was more focused on making sure Aspen was fed and dry. I needed to rest for a while. Across from the subway station was a park. When I arrived in Sunset Valley, I ended up in a park. That was where I met Pepper. Out of nostalgia, heartbreak, and exhaustion, I decided to rest in the park, just like I did back then.

Gently, I put Aspen down on the bench. My arms were sore from holding him for days. I sat down next to him, put my face in my hands, and started to cry. I’d been crying on and off on the Subway, but only in little bits when I absolutely needed to. I hadn’t given myself a chance to actually cry.

It felt so good. It felt like all of my emotions were bottled up, and now I was pouring them out through my eyes. I still felt completely devastated and heartbroken, but at least I had a way to get those emotions out.

“Hey, are you alright? Do you need some help?” A voice pulled me from my sobbing. A voice that sounded so… familiar…

I looked up and my jaw dropped.

“Oh my god, Thorn?”

“Hawk?”

Thorn Fae Chapter 5: Stop, Go

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“Clementine, stop struggling. I really don’t want to have to shoot you.” Aloe stopped hitting me and forced my shoulders down on the bed.

“Get off me!” I yelled, though not too loud in fear of being shot.

“You know I can’t do that.”

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“What the hell is going on?” Nutmeg screamed from the other side of the room. She must’ve been on this side of the castle and heard our struggle.

“Nutmeg, help!” I called out, just before Aloe covered my mouth with his rough, sweaty hand.

“Leave. This doesn’t concern you.” He glared at her, stupidly thinking it would get her to leave.

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“Of course this concerns me. Thorn is a son to me, get the fuck off him.” Nutmeg shouted as she made her way over to us.

She is my daughter, you’re not her mother. Fuck off and let me do my parenting.” Aloe tightened his grip on me.

“He’s not even your kid, you’re not his father. Let him go, you sick fuck.” I’ve never seen Nutmeg so angry in my life.

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“Stop that. Clementine is a girl, I’m trying to fix her. I don’t need you encouraging her delusions. Now, get the fuck out of this room and let me finish, or I will shoot you.” Aloe swung around and pulled his gun on Nutmeg.

He doesn’t need fixing, you do! Do you really think raping him would ‘fix’ him?” She spat, I’ve never seen someone so angry and disgusted in my life.

“It’s. Not. Rape.” He seethed.

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“Of course it is! He doesn’t want it, that’s exactly the definition. Just leave him alone.” Nutmeg was still defending me, even though she had a gun in her face. I would’ve understood if she backed down, this wasn’t something anyone should lose their lives over.

“Stop that, you delusional cunt, I don’t have time for this. Leave this room, or else I’ll shoot.” Aloe shook the gun at her.

“I’m not about to walk out of here and just let you rape a teenager.” Nutmeg shouted.

The gunshot was the loudest noise I’ve ever heard, or will ever hear, in my life.

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Nutmeg fell to the floor with a heavy thud. My ears were still ringing from the shot, and I felt like I was going to vomit, but I still rushed to her side.

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“Nutmeg!” I shouted as I pulled her into my arms. “Nutmeg, no.” I sobbed.

“Thorn,” She started, her voice raspy and soft. “Run, they can’t stay here without you. Go.”

With that, Nutmeg took her last breath and closed her eyes forever.

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“You piece of shit!” I screamed, after I gently laid Nutmeg back on the ground.

“Look, Clementine, I gave her a chance. I warned her. She wanted to die.” He reasoned, but I wasn’t having any of it.

“Bullshit! She was trying to save me and you killed her. You killed one of the only people who’s ever loved me.” I clenched my fists. “Fuck you.” I turned to walk out of the room.

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“W-where are you going?” Aloe panicked.

“I’m leaving. Apparently you can’t stay here without me. Enjoy your life, peasant.” I spat at him.

“No, Clementine don’t leave. We’ll work something out. I’ll buy you whatever you want. Just stay.” He was flustered. With the way he was acting, I knew that Nutmeg’s last words were true.

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I didn’t say another word to him. There were no words for how much I hated him, and how vile of a person he was. I just spun on my heel and flew out of the room as fast as I could, incase he got his shit together and decided to shoot or tackle me.

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In a split-second decision, I decided to head for the balcony instead of the front door. I didn’t know if he had some kind of security or something to stop me from escaping, so this was my best bet.

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Thanks to my wings, the fall wasn’t hard. Which was a good thing, since I wasn’t wearing shoes.

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I took off, flying as fast as I could incase someone decided to follow me. Due to my sheltered life, I’d only been out of the castle a handful of times. I had no idea what I was doing or where I was going, but all I knew was that I couldn’t stay here.

I just wish I could’ve said goodbye to Hawk before I left.

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*Hawk*

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“I-I just don’t understand.” I managed to choke out between sobs. “H-he’s my b-best friend. He l-loved her. Why would he do this?”

My mom was murdered, she was shot by my best friend, Thorn. His step-father, had come in the room after hearing the gunshot. Thorn fled after he was caught.

At least this is what I was being told. I wasn’t sure what was truth or not. All I knew for sure was that my mom was dead. We now sat in the dining hall while the rest of the staff was being interviewed about what went down.

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“Clementine is a very mentally disturbed individual.” Aloe explained condescendingly. “She must’ve snapped. It’s, unfortunate your mother was caught in the crossfire.” He said, feigning empathy.

“I mean, are you sure it was Clem?” My dad asked.

“I’m positive, the gun was still in her hand when I entered the room.”

“Where is the gun?”

“She must’ve taken it with her. I just hope she doesn’t try to use it on anyone else. She’s in enough trouble as is.”

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“I-I just don’t see why he’d use it in the first place, or why he’d even have one to begin with.” I was really struggling to wrap my mind around this all. Sure, he had been acting a little strange lately, but he would never shoot my mom… Right?

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“How would Clem get a gun?” My dad asked Aloe. I could tell my dad was suspicious. As was I, Aloe wasn’t exactly a trustworthy man.

“I have no clue. Maybe one of the peasants you let into the castle this weekend gave it to her. We have no idea what those street rats are capable of.” He sneered.

“This just isn’t adding up.” My dad rubbed his forehead in anguish.

“Well, who do you think the cops are going to believe? Me, their king, or you, the help?” He scowled. My dad recoiled and nodded.

“Y-yes sir. I-I’m sorry I spoke out.”

“Good, now shut up and understand that my story is the truth, and that brat is a murderer.”

Unfortunately, at this point I wasn’t sure who to believe.

Thorn Fae Chapter 4: Confusion and Consequences

 

WARNING: Strong, abusive language and violence. Do not read if those things are triggering to you. Thank you.

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The next weekend, my mother and step-father were out of town, so Hawk was bringing his group of friends over to hang out. We weren’t going to do anything crazy, just watch some movies in my mother’s room and get to know each other. I was nervous as hell, it was my first time meeting people my age, outside of a royal function.

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“Hey, man.” Hawk called out as he entered the room. Four teenagers followed him in.

“Hey.” I waved awkwardly.

“So, this is Forrest,” He motioned towards the red-haired boy, who gave me a small wave.

“Hey.” I said again.

“And this is Bird, Holly, and Ocean.” He motioned to the blue-haired girl, the green-haired girl, and the pink-haired girl respectively. Immediately after seeing Holly I got nervous. I’d never been around a vampire other than Aloe, and he wasn’t exactly a stand up guy.

“Uh, hey. Take a seat.” I motioned towards the couches.

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They all sat down, a girl on either side of me. I felt a little weird, but I wasn’t sure if I was attracted to any of them. I didn’t really know what that felt like yet. Maybe I just needed to get to know them a little more.

“So, this is the famous Thorn. We’ve been hearing so much about you, like since kindergarten basically.” Bird giggled, making Hawk blush. I was really hoping they wouldn’t bring up my royal status, I didn’t want to talk about it.

“Good things?” I asked.

“Yea, that’s for sure. Hawk’s very fond of you.” She replied, making me blush right alongside Hawk.

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“Yea, it’s really cool to finally meet you after all this time.” Forrest chimed in.

“Thanks man. It’s nice to meet you guys too.” I smiled at them. “So what do you guys like to do?” I asked, hoping I was asking the right things. I didn’t want to come off as awkward or weird.

“Well I’m really into sports, I’m trying to get super buff.” Forrest chuckled.

“Oh, nice.” I smiled.

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“I’m really into medical stuff, I spend a lot of time reading medical books and journals. I want to be a doctor.” Holly told me.

“Oh that’s really awesome. Hawk mentioned he might want to be a doctor someday.”

“Yea, we’ve been discussing med schools.”

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“What about you?” I turned to Ocean.

“I’m pretty athletic a well,” She motioned over towards Forrest. “But I’m a lot better than he is.” He stuck his tongue out at her.

“What’s your favorite sport?” I asked, even though I wasn’t really knowledgeable when it came to sports.

“Soccer, definitely. But I don’t like to watch sports, only play them.” She admitted, and I nodded in agreement.

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“I’m really into beauty products and makeup, I really want to be a makeup artist.” Bird told me excitedly.

“Oh that’s cool, like special effects makeup or just regular makeup?”

“I want to know how to do all kinds of makeup, being versatile is never a bad thing.” She laughed.

“That’s true.”

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“Hey Thorn, why don’t we go get some snacks?” Ocean turned to me and asked.

“Uh yea, sure. I’ll see what we have.”

“I’ll come with you.” She insisted.

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As we were walking towards the door, Ocean grabbed my hand. Startled, I glanced over at Hawk, who was pretending not to notice. When I turned back to Ocean we were already in the hallway.

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Before I could even ask her any questions, she grabbed my face and kissed me. I kissed her back, more out of instinct rather than actual lust.

When she pulled back, I tried to say something but she stopped me. “Hawk told me everything, about how he’s in love with you and you aren’t sure if you like boys or girls. I offered to help you figure that out.”

“You don’t have to do that if you don’t want to.” Was all I managed to say.

“I know.”

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“I know I don’t have to, but I’m doing him a favor. And, you’re super cute, so it’s not like it’s a chore.” She giggled.

“Y-you think I’m cute?”

“Well yea, you’re like one of the cutest guys I’ve ever seen.” I felt myself blushing again.

“Thank you.”

“Now, let’s go get some snacks so we can start watching this movie.” She grabbed my hand and excitedly pulled me towards the stairs.

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When we went downstairs, Nutmeg told us she would bring the snacks up in a bit. We offered to get them, but she insisted. She wanted to make us a pizza or something. So the two of us went back upstairs and I put on the movie. It was some kind of comedy, but I wasn’t really paying attention.

I had a pretty girl under my arm, but I wasn’t really enjoying it. Sure, it wasn’t terrible, but I wasn’t really attracted to her either.

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I thought meeting people my age would help me become less confused, but now I was questioning myself even more.

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It was Monday, and I was still confused. I locked myself in my room so I could try and work it all out. Ocean was pretty, I liked kissing her, but I don’t know if I’d want to be with her, or any girl, long term. But at the same time, I wasn’t sure if I could be with a guy. I’ve always found guys attractive, but I thought that was just because I’ve always wanted to be one.

My brain was hurting, but I felt like I owed it to Hawk to figure things out for myself. I didn’t want to string him along or keep him waiting. He deserved to be happy, whether it was with me or with someone else.

I was so lost in my thoughts, I didn’t realize I wasn’t alone in my room until it was too late.

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My step-father, Aloe, yanked my arm back and covered my mouth before I had time to scream.

“Clementine, I have a gun in my jacket, if you scream you’re dead.” I felt my heart speed up. What the fuck was he doing?

“I know you had people over. I know you kissed that girl. You disgust me, I always knew you were a rebellious little cunt, and I always knew your father was insane, but I didn’t think you’d go as far as this. I can’t believe you’re a dyke.”

“Fuck off.” I managed to mumbled from behind his hand.

“Oh Clementine, I think it’s time a man put you in your place. I’m gonna fuck the dyke out of you, you little bitch.”

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Aloe dragged me over to my bed, still covering my mouth. I tried to kick and scream, not caring about the gun, but he was too strong. He threw me on the bed and stood between my legs.

“The less you struggle, the easier it’ll be for both of us.” He glared. “I don’t want to do this to you, but your mother and I can’t afford to have a queer kid like you.”

“Then don’t do it, you fucker.” I yelled, trying to fight back.

“Oh but Clementine, I have to. Now shut up and be a good girl, and I won’t have to blow your fucking head off.” He opened his jacket slightly to reveal the gun holstered to his belt.

“Fuck. You.” I spat in his face. That pissed him off even more, which made him start beating the crap out of my face.

Between the beating and trying to breathe through the blood in my mouth, I prayed. I was about to die, and I knew it.


A/N: I’m so sorry for the long waits between chapters. I’m almost done with school so I’ve got more free time. I promise I’ll try to update more. Thanks for reading 🙂

Thorn Fae Chapter 3: I Thought You Were Different

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One of the few perks of living in royal hell was the private gym. I’d spend hours in there, lifting weights or running on the treadmill. It helped me escape, and it helped me feel better about being stuck in the wrong body.

I was rarely ever bothered while I was in here, and no one ever joined me in my workouts. It was my own little safe-haven. That’s why when the gym door opened and Hawk peeked his head in, it threw me off guard.

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“Uh hey Thorn, how’s the work out?” He was nervous and fidgety, he was usually a cautious person but that doesn’t make him a nervous wreck like this.

“Good. Why, what’s up?” I asked, slightly breathless.

“When do you think you’ll be done?” He completely ignored my own question.

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“I was just finishing up.” I lied, something was obviously up with him. My workout could wait.

“Oh, okay.”

“What’s up dude, you’re acting really strange.”

“I need to talk to you about something, so can you meet me outside by the pool?”

“Uh yeah, I guess. I’ll meet you there in five, I’m gonna change first.” I decided not to question him further, he was obviously going to tell me about whatever was bothering him when we met outside.

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“Alright, take your time. No rush.” He fidgeted nervously with the hem of his shirt.

“Noted. I’ll be down in a few.” I smiled at his as he walked out of the room.

I was a little nervous too, after seeing the strange way he was acting. What was he about to tell me? Was he leaving? I knew he wanted to go to college, so maybe it was time for him to start school. Or maybe he was sick or something. A million outcomes flashed through my mind before I realized I should suck it up and get changed.

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A few minutes later I was in the backyard staring at Hawk. Did I really know what he wanted to say? I had a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just couldn’t shake it.

But I didn’t really have a choice to back out here. No matter what, he was going to tell me whatever he had to tell me. There was no point in prolonging it.

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“Hey.” I greeted as I approached. He immediately jumped up from the lawn chair and nervously grabbed at his collar.

“Hey Thorn.”

“So, what do you have to talk to me about?” I thought it’d be best to just get it over with.

“Well, a lot actually. So I’m just going to dive right in.”

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“You’ve been my best friend for as long as I can remember. You’ve been there for me and I for you, I can’t imagine a life without you. You make me insanely happy and I can be myself around you.”

“What are you getting at here?”

“Thorn, I think I’m in love with you.”

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“Are you fucking kidding me?” I felt the anger bubbling up inside me. I wanted to punch him.

“W-what? No, I wouldn’t joke about something like this.”

“After all this time, I thought you were different. I thought you saw the real me, I thought you understood. I mean, hell, you were the one who convinced me to transition! But you’re just like everyone else, you only see me as a girl.”

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“Thorn, it’s not like that at all, I swear. I’ve only ever seen you as a guy, you know that. I like boys. I’m gay, and I think I’m in love with you.”

“How come you never told me this before?” I still didn’t fully believe he liked me as a boy.

“I tried to be with girls, I tried to repress it. I didn’t and still don’t know if you like boys, so I tried to be with girls. But I just couldn’t love them like I love you.” He looked and sounded like he was going to cry.

“You really love me?”

“More than anyone else.”

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Caught up in the moment, I pulled Hawk close to me and kissed him. I regretted it almost immediately.

Hawk was my best friend. A relationship between us could ruin everything and I could end up with no one. Besides, I wasn’t even sure if I liked boys. I didn’t know any girls my age, so how do I know I don’t like them?

As suddenly as I pulled him in for a kiss, I pushed him away.

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My jaw dropped open and I made an animal like screech, then took off. I couldn’t face this right now.

“Wait, Thorn, come back! I’m sorry!” Hawk yelled after me, but I didn’t turn around. I just flew straight into the castle.

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The bench in the courtyard was where I went went I was stressed or confused. It wasn’t exactly private, since it was surrounded by windows, but it was pretty and the small pond was soothing to me.

I didn’t know what to do or what to think. This was all so confusing, I felt like I was going to be sick.

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“Thorn?” Hawk’s dad, Grape, sat down on the bench next to me. I really wasn’t in the mood to talk, but I also didn’t want to be rude to the only man who actually treated me like a son.

“Yea?” I responded miserably.

“What happened?” He asked. I debated with myself on whether or not I should tell him. I mean, Hawk was his son after all. This conversation might be awkward. But ultimately, I didn’t really have anyone else to talk to about this. Nutmeg wouldn’t really understand.

“Hawk’s in love with me. He says he sees me as a boy but I’m not sure I believe him. And, I’m not sure I even like boys myself. I’ve never actually met any girls my age and I don’t  want to settle for the first person who shows interest in me, y’know?”

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“I knew this would come someday. Hawk’s feelings for you have always been apparent to his mom and I. But, I know for a fact my son sees you as a boy. He’s always been your biggest supporter, there’s no way he would change his perception of you just because he has a crush on you.”

“I mean I guess, but I’m not exactly the most masculine guy in the world. It’s pretty easy to see me as a girl, I’ve still got tits after all.”

“Trust me, Hawk doesn’t care about that. He sees the person you really are. But if it really bothers you, we can buy you a chest binder, to make your chest flatter.” He offered.

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“You’d do that for me?”

“Of course, you’re like a son to me. I want you to be comfortable. I’ll talk to Nutmeg and we’ll get it sorted out. As for the other part of your problem, I think I can arrange for you to meet some more kids your age.”

“What? How?” I felt like Grape was a fairy godfather or something, here to make all my wishes come true.

“Ginger and Aloe are going out of town next weekend. We’ll have the castle to ourselves. We can have Hawk bring his friends over, that was you can get to know them. That is, if you want that.”

“I’d love that, that sounds awesome.”

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“Then it’s settled, when you’re parents are out of town, we’re throwing a party.” He chuckled.

“What a teen-movie cliche.” I laughed with him, then switched into serious mode. “What if they don’t like me? I don’t exactly have the best social skills.”

“How could someone not like you? You’re one of the greatest kids I know. Once they get to know you, they’ll love you.”

“I hope so.” I wrung my hands nervously. Though I was excited about the idea of meeting new people, it was a little frightening as well.

I was just hoping for the best.


A/N: Hey guys, I’m so so sorry I took so long to post, I’ve been sick and I’m back in school, so I’ve been a little busy. But I’m going to try to keep updating regularly, hopefully I can! Thanks so much for reading and I hope you liked the chapter 🙂

Clem Fae Chapter 2: Don’t Call Me That

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Hawk and I spent a lot of time in the winery, my mother refused to drink any wine that wasn’t made specifically for her. She was stuck up in that way. But when it wasn’t being used to cater to my mother’s ridiculous standards, it made a great place to hide away.

“Have you talked to your mom since the other day?” Hawk asked as we idly played with our toys.

“No. But I heard her talking to Aloe, they wanna send me to therapy. They think I’m crazy or something.” I sighed.

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“I think they’re the crazy ones. I just don’t really see you as a girl.”

“Thanks Hawk.” I smiled at my friend.

“So, have you thought of a name yet?” He asked.

“Oh, yea I did.” I remembered excitedly. I hoped Hawk would like my new name choice.

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“Oh really, what is it?” He looked just as excited as I felt.

“How does ‘Thorn’ sound?” I asked.

“That’s perfect!” He exclaimed.

“You really think so?”

“I do, Thorn.” He smiled widely, making me smile as well. It was a good feeling, being accepted.

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“Are you gonna tell your mother?” He asked.

“Yea, but I don’t think she’ll actually call me that.”

“Well it’s worth a shot.”

“Yea, I’m not giving up yet. Maybe she’ll come around eventually.” I hoped, but part of me knew that would never happen.

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*Years later*

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“Clementine, when did these delusions start?” My new therapist, Doctor Ass-hat or something, I’ve gone through so many therapists just this year I don’t even bother learning their names anymore.

“Don’t call me that. My name is Thorn. And I’m not having any delusions, I’m transgender.” I explained for probably the thousandth time.

“Clementine. You believe you’re a boy. You believe you’re something you’re not. Now, I’d say that’s delusional.” He smirked with his creepy little mustached mouth. He looked so smug, I wanted to punch him. But last time my mother had to pay him off so he wouldn’t sue.

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“You see, but I am a boy. What’s a boy to you, sir?” I asked, faking respect for the douche-bag in front of me.

“A boy is someone born male, Clementine. A male is someone with a penis.” He explained, using a voice that adults use to talk to small children.

“So, basically you’re saying that people are defined by their physical attributes? You’re saying that people have to look and act a certain way because of what they have between their legs? I was always taught not to judge someone by their appearance, does that not apply here?”

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“Physical appearance and biology are two different things, Clementine. People can’t just decide to change their gender, that’s not how the world works.”

“First of all, don’t call me that. My name is Thorn. Second, that’s bullshit. If I feel like, act like, and dress like a boy, I’m a boy. I shouldn’t have to be forced to be someone I’m not.”

“I agree, I don’t think you should force yourself to be a boy when you aren’t one.” He thought he was a goddamn genius, and I hated him.

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“Sir, where did you get your degree? The University of Bigotry?”

“Clementine, this session isn’t about me. It’s about you and your issues.”

“Really? Because it seems like its about you, you keep trying to force your close-minded gender roles on me. You’re pushing what you think is right onto me, when I might not necessarily agree. So Sir, it seems like this session actually is about you.”

I could see the old man’s mustache twitch. He was getting angry, by now I could read therapists like a book. They would try their best to stay calm, but if I tried hard enough I could get them to explode.

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But unfortunately, right as the doctor was about to respond, my library door swung open.

“Excuse me, the Queen has requested the session to end early today, her birthday party is starting in an hour and she needs Clementine ready before the guests arrive.” One of my mother’s servants, Reef Crane, stepped into the room. Though I didn’t get to thoroughly piss this guy off, I was glad to get out of here. But I wasn’t glad I had to go to this party.

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I stood to leave and sighed. “Is my dress in my wardrobe?” I asked him, visibly and audibly dejected.

“Yes it is.”

I grumbled and rolled my eyes as I approached the door to leave. Reef held the door open for me and closed it behind us.

“I’m sorry, Thorn. I really wish we didn’t have to do this to you.” He apologized once the therapist was out of earshot.

“It’s okay, I understand how it is. Hopefully my mother will come around soon.” I said, but we both knew that would never happen.

“I’ll see you downstairs.” He gave me a sad smile as he headed out of my bedroom.

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When I opened the wardrobe, a hideous pink dress stared me in the face. I wanted to burn it, or maybe throw it out my window. But unfortunately, my mom had my windows locked permanently after doing that so many times before.

Hopefully I’d just have to make an appearance at the party, then when things got crazy I could just slip away. I didn’t want to have to spend any more time in this thing than necessary.

When I got the dress on, I wanted to puke at the sight of myself in the mirror. I looked so… girly. I’m not a girl. My reflection didn’t match my perception of myself, and I hated it. My eyes started to tear up as I stood there, staring.

No. I can’t cry about this. I told myself.

I was gonna have to suck it up for a while, no matter how terrible I felt.

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But sucking it up didn’t mean I had to pretend to enjoy myself. I wanted to be as pissy as possible, to let my mother know I wasn’t doing this willingly.

“Now Nutmeg, I want you to watch her, make sure she doesn’t cause problems with the guests.” My mother spoke to my nanny as if I wasn’t there.

“Yes your highness.”

“I want her to make an appearance, assure everyone that she’s alive and well, then she can leave. I don’t want a repeat of my twenty-ninth birthday.” She glared at me.

“I’m pretty sure that was your thirty-fifth birthday, mom.” I smiled smugly as she balled her fists.

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“Clementine, dear, please be nice to your mother. It’s her birthday.” Aloe scolded, and my mother beamed at him.

“Thank you, baby.” She cooed sickly. I felt like barfing. “Listen to your dad, Clementine.”

“He’s not my dad. Aloe’s my step-dad.”

“He’s the only father you’ve ever known. He’s been here, and your real father hasn’t. He’s your father.” She glared.

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“The man didn’t even speak to me until I was ten years old, I wouldn’t even consider him a family friend.”

“Clementine, would it kill you to be pleasant for once in your life? I’m so tired of this attitude.” My mother rolled her eyes.

“I wouldn’t have such an attitude if you actually let me be myself.”

“We are not getting into this right now.” She shot daggers with her eyes. “Now, why don’t you go with Nutmeg, she can help you get your makeup on.”

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I glanced over at Nutmeg, and she nodded. “Come on now, Clem, let’s go.” She wrapped her arm around my shoulders. I felt a little better, I knew we weren’t actually going to put makeup on. She was going to let me sit in the kitchen while she got the food ready. It’s what we did pretty much every party.

“Fine.” I pretended to be pissed. We didn’t want my mom to get suspicious. She smiled smugly at me, thinking that she won. I couldn’t wait until I could sneak out of the party.

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*A few hours later*

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Once a lot of people crowded the ballroom, it was fairly easy to sneak out and into my room. I quickly changed back into my own clothes and instantly felt better.

When I finished changing, I made my way to the winery. As we got older, Hawk and I stopped playing in here and started hanging out in the tower room above it. Nutmeg and the other servants helped us furnish the little room, and we all called it the man-cave.

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“Hey, mind if I join you?” I asked Hawk when I entered the room. He was completely absorbed in the video game, so I startled him a bit.

“Not at all man, take a seat.” He patted the bean bag next to him.

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I grabbed my controller and jumped right into the game. “How was the party?” He asked.

“Shitty, as always. I really don’t see why anyone would enjoy something like that.” I huffed.

“I don’t either. When you’re king, you better not have parties like that.” He chuckled.

“Nah man, my parties are gonna be way awesome. Open bars, DJs, cool stuff like that. Not stuffy people standing around talking about politics. That’s what meetings are for.”

“Dude, you’re gonna be the best king ever.”

“Thanks man, I don’t really wanna be king but if I had to, I definitely won’t be boring.”

“If you aren’t king, what would you like to be?”

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“I think maybe an artist. Or a video game designer. Something cool like that. What do you wanna do?”

“Well if I’m not a servant forever, I’d probably want to be a doctor. Or a therapist. But a good therapist.” He said quickly when I glared at him. “I want to actually help people, not make them feel worse.”

“That’s good, this world needs more people like you.”

“Thank you, Thorn.”

Clementine Fae Chapter 1: Anything You Wanna Be

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My mother was out for the day, I was able to spend some time with Hawk. The two of us sat in the library, bored and unsure of what to do. Neither of us were in the mood to play games after my mother’s outburst.

“Hawk, what should we do today? I’m bored.” I sighed.

“Dunno, maybe we should just hang out in here. If your mom comes home then it’ll take her longer to find us.”

“I guess, but what are we supposed to do in a library?” I sighed.

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“I don’t know, talk I guess?” He suggested.

“Talk about what?” I wasn’t exactly a social expert…

“I don’t know, how are you?”

“Not great, I don’t really like my life.” I admitted.

“Why?” He cocked his head, visibly confused.

“I don’t know, I guess I’d rather have a life like yours.”

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“Why? You’ve got a pretty cool life. You live in a castle!”

“You do too.” I reminded him.

“Yea, in a room with four other people. You have a sweet set up with games and toys. Why don’t you like it?”

“I-I guess I just don’t like being a girl.” I broke eye contact and started staring at my hands.

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“Well do you wanna be a boy?”

“Yea.”

“Then be a boy! My mom always tells me I can be whatever I wanna be, so you can too.” He smiled up at me.

“Really?”

“Yea!”

“What do I have to do first?” I asked excitedly.

“Well, we should probably cut your hair, so you look more like a boy.” He suggested.

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“I’ll race you to the bathroom!” I shot up and flew out of the room, eager to get started.

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I beat Hawk to the bathroom fairly easily. With my back to him, I stood in front of the mirror.

“Clem, are you sure you wanna do this?” He asked nervously. “I know it’ll make you feel better, but what about your mom?”

“I don’t care, she can’t do anything about it. Sure, she can punish me, but that’s not gonna make my hair grow back.” I smirked, she could make me change my clothes if she wanted, but she can’t break the laws of nature.

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“Hawk, hand me the scissors.” I stuck my hand out and he placed them in my hand.

I took a deep breath as I put my hair into a ponytail. “Well, here goes nothing.” I said as I cut the ponytail off.

“Your mom is going to kill us.” Hawk gulped from behind me.

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After ten minutes of cutting and styling, I was finally happy with my hair. “So, how does it look?” I asked Hawk.

“Great, you look like a boy!” He smiled at me, and I couldn’t help but smile back. I never felt so happy with myself.

“Now what do I have to do to be a boy?”

“Um, I’m not sure, I think you’re already a boy.”

“What about my name? Clementine isn’t exactly a boy name.”

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“Do you have a boy name you wanna go by?” He asked as I stepped off the stool and away from the mirror.

“Um. Not yet. I’ll think about it.”

“Well then until you do, I’ll just call you Clem. It’s not girly like your full name.”

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“Thank you Hawk, you’re the best friend I could ever have.” I reached over and hugged him.

“Yea, of course, dude.” He patted me on the back. “Now, wanna go play on the trampoline?”

“What happened to hanging out in the library?” I asked, and he shrugged.

“We shouldn’t have to be afraid of your mom. Let’s just go have fun.”

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Hawk and I spent the remainder of the afternoon bouncing on the trampoline. Even though we both knew my mom was going to burst a blood vessel screaming at me when she got home, we didn’t care. I finally felt happy with myself. No matter what my mom said to me, she couldn’t change that.

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Soon, we heard the dreadful sound of my mom’s car pulling into the driveway. I looked over and saw her get out. She took one look at me and bolted inside.

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“Clementine Fae, get your ass down here now.” She came outside screaming. It seemed like I heard her yell more than I actually heard her speak.

I sighed and looked at Hawk, we both knew this wasn’t going to end well.

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“What have you done to yourself?” She bellowed as soon as I approached her.

“I cut my hair.” I responded nonchalantly.

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“Why would you do such a thing! You look like a boy!”

“Because I wanna be a boy!” I screamed back. She looked baffled.

“That’s impossible, you’re a girl. You’ll always be a girl, and nothing but a girl. Now stop this nonsense. Get inside, right now.”

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“I am a boy! No matter what you say.” I stomped my foot on the grass.

“Get inside right now young lady, I’m going to have a long talk with your father about your behavior.”

“I’m not a lady! And Aloe is not my father.” I snarled at her.

“Get. Inside.” She glared so hard that if looks could kill, I’d be dead a hundred times over.

“Fine.” I huffed and made my way inside.

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*Ginger*

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“Aloe, what the hell is wrong with my daughter? Why is she acting like this?” I buried my face in my hand.

“I don’t know, Pumpkin, but this has to stop here. Maybe we should get her a therapist.” My husband suggested.

“Yea, maybe. Do you think she’s crazy, like Lake?” It was one of my biggest fears after finding out he was insane, I would hate for my child to end up just like him.

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“It’s possible. But I think we can stop it here. If she get’s help, she’ll be able to get out of this ‘I’m a boy’ delusion.”

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“I really hope you’re right, Aloe. This could end very badly for us. We could lose everything if we lose her.”

“I’ll call the therapist first thing in the morning.”

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*Clem*

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I could hear my mom and Aloe talking about me, so I went out and took a seat in the courtyard.

“Clem, can I sit?” Nutmeg’s voice asked from behind me.

“Sure.” I sighed. I didn’t want to be lectured by her too.

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“So I talked to Hawk, he told me everything.” She smiled, and I felt a little more at ease. Maybe she wasn’t about to yell at me.

“And?” I asked, hopeful.

“And, I’m very proud of you. I know it can be scary to be yourself. But I’m here for you, I support you. I know Hawk does too.”

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“Thank you.” I smiled at her. “But what about my mom? What is she gonna do to me?”

“I… I don’t know. But I’ll talk to her, I’ll try to talk some sense into her. Being transgender isn’t something that needs to be fixed.”

“What does that mean?”

“Transgender?” She asked, and I nodded. “It means not identifying with the gender you were assigned at birth. Since you were born a girl, and you identify as a boy, that means you’re transgender.” She explained.

“Are there other people like me?” I asked.

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“Loads, boys who were born girls, girls who were born boys.  You’re not alone.” She wrapped her arm around my shoulders.

“That’s good.”

“Yea. You’re a good kid, I promise I’m going to do my best to make sure you’re happy.”

“Thank you. I love you.”

“I love you too.” She kissed me on the top of my head. “Now, let’s get you some dinner, then get you off to bed.”

She grabbed my hand and led me out of the courtyard. It was nice to have one adult on my side.


So sorry for the long wait, I’ve been stuck on this chapter forever. Hopefully I’ll be posting more often now, thank you for bearing with me!