The past few months had been really hard on me. What Jeremy told me was hard to process. I wasn’t mad at him, I knew it wasn’t his fault. It was just hard to find out the truth about what happened. It was also a little strange to me that he was half human. He didn’t look human at all, he told me he took after his mom mainly except for his eyes. But still, it was weird.
There was also the stuff that Chrissy told me. I still couldn’t figure out if it was just because I missed her or if she really did contact me in my dreams. I had no way of finding out if I was really royal or not, the humans has taken all of our historic documents into observation. I hadn’t had another dream like that since that night. So I came to the conclusion that it was just how my subconscious was dealing with my grief.
It was really hard to get through most days. Jeremy was always there to help, but he couldn’t always give me what I needed. I needed a girlfriend, and I wasn’t sure I could ever replace the one I had.
Today was one of those hard days. I sat in my living room with my head down on the couch cushion. I was crying silently, even though I was alone. Or so I thought.
I didn’t even feel the couch dip when he sat down on it, I guess it’s because he’s still so small.
“Momma, are you sad?” River questioned. My head shot up to look at him. He was sitting on the other end of the couch, leaning towards me.
“I’m okay sweetie.” My voice cracked.
“You’re too pretty to cry, Momma.” River smiled innocently.
“Thanks baby. But everyone gets sad sometimes.”
“Are you sad about Chrissy?” He whispered. I nodded, and her frowned. “I miss her too Momma. But you know what always makes me feel better?”
He jumped off the couch and took my head in his small hands. He kissed me softly on the forehead. “I love you Momma.”
“I love you too baby, thanks for making me feel better.” River was such a sweet kid, he was always trying to cheer everyone up, or make someone feel good. He was a great kid, and I couldn’t have asked for a better son.
“No problem Momma, I like making you smile, it’s so pretty.”
My boy was too cute.
“How was you’re day, Love?” Jeremy asked me later that evening as we stood in our bedroom.
“Hard. Thank god for River though, he cheered me up a bit.” Jeremy smiled.
“Yea, he’s pretty great at that.”
“He must get it from you.” We giggled. River didn’t get his personality from me or his actual father.
“I think I know how to make your day even better.” He smiled.
“Oh really?” I flirted, giving him a questioning look.
“Yes really.” He started to lower himself to the floor.
“Jeremy, what are you doing?”
“Something I should’ve done a long time ago.” He was down on one knee now, and he was reaching into his pajama pants pocket.
He pulled out a small black box and opened it, revealing a beautiful engagement ring.
“Primrose, I’ve had a crush on you since you started working at the theater. I didn’t act on it at first, because you were so badass it was intimidating. When I met Becca, my crush went away, but I still thought you were gorgeous. After Becca threw me and the kids out, I was so lost. I had no idea how I was gonna raise two kids on my own. When we ran into each other at the park that day, I knew it was meant to be. You saved me from a dark place in my life, and I owe you my life for that. I love you Primrose, and we’ve been a family for so long now, and I think it’s time to make that family official. Marry me. Right here right now.” Only Jeremy could use the word ‘badass’ and mention an ex girlfriend in his proposal.
“Yes! And no. I’ll marry you, but not right this second. I want the kids with us. This wedding isn’t just for us, it’s for our family.” I replied, a smile spread so tight across my face I felt like my head was going to explode.
“This Saturday then? Just you me and the kids.”
“I’d love that. I love you, Jeremy.”
“I love you too, Prim.” He kissed me on my cheek. “C’mon love, lets celebrate.” He winked and pulled me too the bed.
We decided to get married on the same beach Chrissy and Hero got married on. We invited Hero, but he was exhausted from taking care of Clover all night so he stayed home. I let Missy do my hair, she made it wavy with her curling iron and put it up. It looked amazing, she was pretty talented.
We kept our vows short and sweet. We didn’t want River to get bored, and I didn’t really know how to put my emotions into words. Mainly the last reason… But anyway, it was a gorgeous wedding and more importantly we were finally an official family.
And of course, in a true newly-wed fashion, we came home and immediately consummated our marriage.
I snuggled Clover closer to me. “Hey Clo, it’s your birthday today.” I whispered quietly to the bundle in my arms. She gurgled in response and I chuckled. Even though she couldn’t talk yet she always tried to respond to me.
I took her into our bedroom and laid her down on the bed while I changed into my everyday clothes.
“C’mon Princess, lets go celebrate.” I lifted my daughter off the bed slowly and carried her downstairs.
The birthday cake was already set up. We were celebrating alone, the Fae’s were all out that day. Everyone wanted to distract themselves today. I know I did too.
I carried her to the cake, lit the candle and sang happy birthday softly to the baby in my arms. I blew the candle out for her when I was done and sat her on the floor. I stood back and watched my baby transition.
When the sparkles cleared, a gorgeous little toddler sat where my baby used to be. She had her mother’s hair and my eyes. She reminded me so much of her mother, it made my chest ache.
I scooped her up into my arms. “Hey Clo, wanna go visit Mommy?” I cooed. She giggled, so I took that as a yes.
Fifteen minutes later we stood at the familiar grave spot. I sat Clover on the ground and faced my wife’s headstone.
“It’s been a year, Chrissy. I still miss you so much. I wake up in the middle of the night and reach for you, until I realize you’re gone. It’s been so hard Chrissy. I don’t know how to live without you. Clover and I need you Chrissy.” I sobbed, Clover gurgling innocently by my feet. “I miss you Chrissy. We all do. I promise, you won’t be forgotten. I promise our daughter will know what an amazing woman you were. I love you, my little flower.”
I always spoke to Chrissy when I came to visit. I was usually the only one there, the only other graves here were some unmarked ones and ones for pets. Even if someone else was here, I still talked to her. I didn’t care if I seemed crazy, she was too important for me to care.
I picked up Clover and tossed her in the air. She screamed with delight and I smiled. Clover was the only person who could cheer me up. It was hard for me to love her at first, but her giggling was so sweet and innocent, I couldn’t blame her for what happened anymore.
“We love you Chrissy.” I blew a kiss at the headstone and headed out, Clover bouncing on my hip.
“River, how would you feel about being a big brother?” I stopped River by the shared mailbox, he was probably heading over to see Clover, who had just become a toddler.
“That would be so cool!” He squealed. “I’ve always wanted a younger sibling Momma!”
“Well you’re in luck buddy, your Daddy and I are having another baby!” I announced. His face lit up and he jumped up and down.
“This is so exciting Momma, I can’t wait! When are they coming?”
“In a few months, so we gotta be patient.” I smiled. His smiled dropped a little.
“Aw man. That soo long.” He whined. But then his face lit up again “But its still gonna be so cool!”
“Where is the baby, Momma?”
“They’re in my tummy, would you like to feel?” He nodded and I placed his hand on my tiny bump.
“I can’t feel anything.” He frowned.
“Yea, they’re still really tiny, but you’ll be able to feel them soon.” He smiled. “Now you can’t tell Daddy, he doesn’t know yet.” I put my fingers to my lips. He nodded and ran into Hero’s house. I smiled and shook my head.
“What doesn’t Daddy know yet?” A deep voice asked from our porch.
“Well that Daddy doesn’t know that in a few months he’s going to be a Daddy of four instead of three.” I smirked as I watched his expression changed. It went from questioning, to confusion then to excitement.
“Oh my god, you’re pregnant?” He squealed like a child. I nodded, my eyes starting to leak tears. He ran down the stairs and immediately put his hand on my stomach.
“Oh my god Primrose, I can’t wait.” he looked up at me, his eyes watering too.
“I’m nervous.” I admitted. When I found out we were expecting, my immediate reaction was panic. I was scared, no doubt about it after what happened with Clover’s birth. I knew it was silly, that kind of thing isn’t very common. But still I was afraid.
“That’s understandable, babe. But I promise, I won’t let anything happen to you or our baby.” I smiled through my tears. I was so thankful I had the father in my life this time around.
This pregnancy went by a lot faster than my pregnancy with River. It’s funny how much has changed since then. I had a real family now, and I didn’t have anything to worry about.
“Prim, I can feel her kicking.” Jeremy and I had found out we were having a girl. When she’s born, we’ll have two sons and two daughters. A perfect balance.
“She probably trying to kick her way out.” We laughed, I was almost a week over my due date, and if I didn’t go into labor by tomorrow, I was gonna have to be induced.
“Why don’t you try exercising? I read online that that can help induce labor.” Jeremy suggested. We had tried a few things already and so far nothing has worked.
So I ran upstairs and changed into some work out clothes and put on an old exercise video. I did all the stupid routines for about an hour, until I got bored and had to pee.
When I went to the bathroom, a horrible pain ripped through my abdomen. I freaked out, Chrissy was found in her bathroom, and I thought this was a bad sign.
“Jeremy!” I yelled.
“I think s-AHH” I screamed as a contraction hit. Jeremy rushed in the bathroom and helped me out to the car.
Five minutes later we were rushing into the hospital. We were more than ready to have this baby.
Later that night we brought home our new daughter. We named her Poppy, Jeremy came up with the name late one night. We both loved it and so it stuck. We set up a crib in River’s room, he really didn’t mind sharing, he’s a very heavy sleeper so the baby’s cries won’t wake him at night.
Once Poppy was settled, Jeremy pulled me into a kiss.
“Thank you Prim.” He whispered softly against my cheek. “She’s beautiful.”
“I could’t have done it without you.” I smirked. Our moment was interrupted by the bedroom door flying open, revealing a wide eyed River standing in the hall.
“Is that her? Can I see her?” He cried with excitement.
“Of course Bud, just be quiet, she’s sleeping.” Jeremy said, ushering him toward the crib.
“Wow, she’s so tiny.” He whispered, pressing his face against the side of the crib. “She’s so pretty Momma.”
“She is.” I smiled and Jeremy wrapped his arm around my waist.
“Was I ever this tiny?” I laughed.
“You were actually smaller, Poppy is a pretty big baby.” River looked up at us with a bewildered expression.
“I don’t believe that.” We all giggled softly, then he turned to the two of us with a serious expression. “Momma, how come her skin color matches Daddy’s, but mine doesn’t match either of yours?”
Oh god. I was not ready to explain this. Not yet. “River, it’s passed your bedtime, isn’t it?” He frowned at the change of subject, but thankfully let it go for the night.
Happy new year guys! Thanks for reading so far, and I hope you all have a great 2014.